Bullying

What others say and do cannot stop you from fulfilling your destiny. Your destiny was handed down by ALMIGHTY GOD. We just need to trust GOD.

From the past and until now I experience being bullied by other people. They try to pull me down. 

Before the only thing I do is just to sit and cry.

In our school there is a boy that made me cry a lot. Sobrang nasaktan ako sa mga ginagawa nya. Kahit isang beses nya lang ako nakita ay sobrang tumatak yun sa isipan ko. Sinasabihan nya ako pilay tapos gagayanin nya pa kung paano ako maglakad. And I hate it. I hate that feeling on how they treat me. Parang ang liit-liit ko lalo. Sa school hindi maiiwasan sa bata ang maging matanong at tuksuhin ka sa kalagayan mo. Halos araw-araw nakikita ko sa mga mata nila na pinag uusapan ka, hindi man nila aminin sa akin pero ramdam kong iba ang tingin nila sa akin. Tiniis ko lahat ng ito, wala akong pinagsasabihin sa mga magulang ko dahil ayaw kong masaktan sila. The only thing I did was to keep in my mind that I have to finish my studies. Every year I pray that someday my parents would be proud of me, whatever achievements I have.   

Minsan may defender ako, ang kapatid kong mas bata pa sa akin, ang tagatanggol ko, tuwing umuuwi kami sa tanghali pero madalas, ako lang mag isa dahil hindi naman parehas ang schedule namin sa mga panahong yun lagi nagmamadali akong umuwi sa bahay para wala ng pagkakataong pagtawanan pa. Itinatago ko sa lahat na pagod na ako dahil ayaw kong masaktan sila at para marating ko ang pinapangarap ko. At hindi naman ako nabigo. Nakatapos ako kahit papano sa elementarya na may karangalang naibigay sa kanila.

After I passed that  challenges, may isang pagsubok pa ang dumating sa akin. Ang pagpasok ko sa high school ay naging isang big challenge para sa akin. Hindi pala dun natatapos ang mga pagsubok ko dahil naging steping stone ko lang ito para sa mas malaking journey ng buhay ko.

And being bullied by someone makes my parent being over protected and supportive with what I want… they always make sure that I’m ok.  And that’s what I am blessed to have a family like them.

And every journey that I had was a great experience to become a better person as of right now. Those tears in my eyes, will finally dry and will wipe away all the pain I have..  tears are prayers too. They travel to GOD when we can’t speak.

Trying to put me down won’t be easy, because now I have faith in GOD that he pick me up.

My SAVIOUR, DEFENDER AND CREATOR.

Pray with your heart and soul and God will listen.

Thank you and GODBLESS…. Hope I inspire you. =)

childhood development

Sometimes I wonder why did this happen to me? But, then I remember God has everything planned out.

Three months after that incident, my parents notice something is wrong. There’s a late development, I didn't use my other hand to hold things and when I’m crawling my other hand always closed and become violet in color. They say that “siguro tinatamad lang nyang gamitin”. They consult a doctor and give me some vitamins.

Later on I reach my 1 year old and yet I can’t walk alone but with the help of a walker I can. We went to different places to consult for someone a doctor and even faith healers. It maybe “pinag-ibigan” faith healers said. And doctors said “CP or Cerebral Palsy” ” a motor conditions that cause physical disability in human development. But in my case it’s a mild cerebral palsy because my mind is normal I can understand certain things only my physical body is affected.

Everything’s went to normal I can play but there’s a minimal movement. I can talk even it’s not clear but you can understand. I can do other things like eating with myself and dressing up. They never give up looking for a cure so do I never give up too. Every time they know about a certain person that being healed by someone we immediately go for it, believing that I can also be treated.

And before I reach my 2 year old and my younger sister walks, I copied how she walks. And that is the first time that my parents see me, walking with my feet. That was the biggest miracle happened. Even I walked in tiptoe; it’s a big surprise for us. Cause there’s a big chance for me to walk straight. And with the helped of my other grandfather, he always scares me to hit my feet “kapag hindi ko ito ilalapat ng maayos sa sahig” and I am very thankful to him that he treats me like that. Now I can normally walk even there’s a half inch smaller with my other foot.

When my grandfather had stroke, we both had a therapy. Every time that my grandfather had a therapy I also join his sessions, so that there will be progress in my physical development. The last thing I remember that we went to a doctor was when I was five or seven years old in Makati Medical Hospital the only thing that they could give to me is through a therapy they didn't discover some medicines for Cerebral Palsy Case. As of right now I never give up and hoping for someday I can also handle an object with my other hand just like when I can finally walk alone with no other assistant or help coming from someone.

 “Believe in yourself because God believed in you first. He put you on the Earth for a reason.”

Whatever that reason that GOD has for me I know I’ll understand one day.