Jeepney

Another story that I want to share is about jeepney.

Jeepney is a public vehicle which may help you to go in different places. And inside of it are the passanger with different personality.

Let me first ask you something, is there one point in your life that before you sit comfortable, you take a glance of the people or do you stare at people that catch your attention?

But before you answer that I want you to understand and analyze some situation that might affect your actions.

Kapag na babanggit o nakakakita ako ng jeep, isa lang ang tumatatak sa isip ko ang TAKOT.

Hindi ko maintindihan pero sa tuwing sasakay ako ay may kaakibat na takot sa dibdib ko.

Siguro para sa inyo madali lang ang sumakay sa pampasaherong sasakyan. Pero sa akin ay hindi. Maraming bagay o pangyayari ang hindi nating maiiwasan kapag sumakay ka sa jeep.

Hindi ko na realize na ang simpleng bagay na pagsakay ay mahirap para sa akin.

Sa simula pa lang na itungtong ko ang mga paa ko sa jeep ay na lingos na lahat ng mga nakasakay dito. Hanggang sa pag upo at pag-andar muli ng jeep ay nakatingin nasa akin ang ilan.

Hindi ko sila masisisi dahil kakaiba ako pero masakit para sa akin yun, kaya ipinapaling ko na lang lagi ang ulo ko sa labas para maaliw ako.

Maaliw ang isip ko na hindi nila ako tinitingnan at pinagmamasdan mula ulo hanggang paa. 

Mahirap mang alisin sa tao pero yun na tayo curious pero ang salitang ito ay nakakasakit na, lalo na kung sumosobra at nagiging judgemental na sa huli.

Na minsan ay nagugulat na sila sa oras na ipaling ko muli ang ulo ko sa kanila.

Naisip ba ng mga taong nakatingin sa akin na hindi lang ako ang kakaiba sa loob ng jeep na ito.

At maging sa pagbaba ko ay pagbubulungan pa nila ako. Gaano kahirap para sa akin ang gawin ito araw-araw.

Minsan nakakasawa na din bale walain ang mga nangyayari.

Pero ang nagiging lakas ko lang sa muling paghakbang ng mga paang ito sa lupa may kasama ako at katabi pa.

Si GOD….

God lets us go through hard times in life so that we may appreciate our blessings in the end. God is good always.

God said, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.

And now I understand why HE gave me this condition for you to know and realize who you are as a person. Are you a type of person that take a glance to the person with disability or the person that are not contented in just looking at him/her and worst staring.

I hope I could open your mind, which action you must do and someone might not be offended.

In every situation you must think first the feelings of other people.

We live by faith, not by sight." -2 Corinthians 5:7

Thank you and GODBLESS US.

TRIALS

I know God won't give me anything I can't handle. I just wish he didn't trust me so much.

I thought I can’t handle all the bad things, and soon I want to give up.

HE gave me trials that I never imagine to happen.

when I was in grade school and soon to take an entrance exam to continue my studies, I  passed it but unfortunately at the last stage, the interview level I've failed because they saw me. 

They saw my condition and that’s their basis. That judgment made me cry a lot. They said I am not eligible in that school because of my condition, and many things they said why I am not qualified, so many reasons and I couldn't understand why. The first discrimination I've experienced. My parents never know that every night I cry in my room silently, believing that there’s something wrong in me. 

Despite of my condition, my parents encourage me to continue my studies.My parents never give up and find another school wherein I can continue my studies and finally forget about what happen. 

Even there are many things I am afraid of, dealing with peers and facing my fears. We all know that high school is the best part of our life; there are many things that might happen in this stage of life and that are what I am afraid of.That’s school brings me hope and strength to pursue my dreams. Although I am fit in that school there is some trials and judgment I’ve encounter.

First, the TRUST because of that hardship that I’ve experience it is not easy for me to trust anyone. At first I’ve become loner, it is so hard to become like me. That anyone could easily judge me because of what they saw outside. But sooner and later it finally change.

Second, the fears of being rejected again. As time goes by, rejection is the most thing I hate to hear. I don’t want to happen it again, rejected by the one you trust and being excluded in the group.

As what I’ve said before my parents become very strict in me, they are providing all the needs and they never wanted to be hurt once again by the people around me. They always protected me, and always assured that things could be easy for me to handle.

These are some of the things happened to me in my high school life. Some obstacles I’ve passed, and difficulties I’ve struggled just to survive the circumstances that life could offers to me.

It became hard for me to trust someone again. Even though I have friends I never open my life to them, I don’t want to be judge again.

Those trials helped me a lot to become a better person right now. That it helps me to gain some friends and have faith to those who really love me.

My life gives me the courage to be more flexible in dealing with people. Even there were some flaws I experience, trying to be more optimistic with what happened to me. And it gives me a better picture of what life had.

God had a plan when bringing a person into my life, but had an even better plan when they walked out.

God's way is always the best way.

Hope I inspire you once again. Thank you. GODBLESS